Our classic Christmas picture for 2017 — we think it looks like a Norman Rockwell moment. And I hope to paint that for this year! Loved the excitement of both boys coming down the stairs and their energy all of Christmas day!
Something I wanted to remember from Christmas…Had this moment in church with Willie where he was hugging me. I told him Merry Christmas and he whispered it back. Then he started playing with my hair and said, “Mom, your hair looks beauuutiful!” I smiled so big because he was being so nice and then he started to play with my earring. He leaned in and whispered, “And I love your brooms!”…
I listened to Oprah’s supersoul podcast with Dr. Brene Brown today. I really liked it and found a number of things that resonated with me. But the subject that maybe did the most was the one about letting go of perfectionism. I think sometimes I really am striving for perfection and when I or others fall short it is such a letdown. It’s almost a subconscious thingthat I honestly don’t even realize I’m doing most of the time, but my unrealistic expectations sure can be difficult to live up to.
I saw this little sketch after the podcast and thought it would be a good thing for me to refer to. I feel like the ones I can really work on are 1) Perfectionism, 2) Comparison. I used to struggle more with what people think, but I think I’ve come a long way in that I don’t use that as a measurement for my self worth as much as I used to. But lately especially in being a mom, I find myself striving for perfection so that I won’t be judged on how I am doing as a mom. And I compare myself to other moms … mostly to make myself feel better about myself and my decisions. It’s not the way I would like to be. I want to be happy with the way I am doing things because that’s what makes me ME. I don’t want to have to put someone else’s way down in my head to feel good about myself.
Some lovely little things today…
I’ve been enjoying and savoring my cup of coffee in the morning with the boys. I really love this blueberry coffee, especially in the fall. And it tastes even better in this new cup that my sister Bridget gave to me. It really is a cup of happy 🙂
We went to Trader Joe’s this morning. The boys love going there and can’t wait to get to the back to try the samples. A lady that worked there gave them a breakfast bar to try just to be nice and it made our trip! We also tried a sample of their boxed banana bread with chopped up zucchini and hemp seed. It was so good that I bought it to try here at home.
I also bought these flowers – I thought they were so pretty, especially for $3.99 – they just brighten up the kitchen and add a nice finishing touch to the table.
Enjoyed listening to part 1 and part two of this new podcast I just found called the God Centered Mom. I think my favorite part was this quote: “There is no grace for your imagination.” I feel like lately maybe I get caught up thinking about the future and what will happen in certain scenarios. It just reminds me to live each day moment by moment and know that God will take care of us. He gives us what we need in each moment, but when we worry about tomorrow or years from now, that grace isn’t there for us to sooth our imagination.
I’ve been loving listening to this song by Lady Antebellum “The Stars” — the lyrics are very uplifting and it just makes you feel like you can rise to any challenge.
“Don’t let the perfect be the enemy of good.” – Voltaire
Today is a day for a new beginning. I’ve been delaying a number of things: getting back in shape, getting finances in better order, fixing a few things around the house, cleaning our basement, decluttering, starting this website. Sometimes I think about how to devise a plan for so long that I just keep putting it off. I can’t quite get it perfect in my mind and so I just delay or never actually do anything about my goals. For example, with working out, I start telling myself I won’t be able to carve out 30-45 minutes to work out and so I just decide not to even do it for 10 or 15 minutes. Those 10 or 15 minutes are still better than nothing.
So today I started with a simple goal – run to the end of my block and back home. It’s a little under a mile and I did it! It took me a little less than 10 minutes and I did take a break at the end of the block. I’m still building up my stamina, but now I feel motivated and ready to get a little bit better each day. I am really thankful to be feeling better and stronger 🙂
I have my other goals as well, and I made a little progress in a few other areas. For one, there were a number of good labor day sales for clothes and I did not buy a single thing. That was quite difficult because I’m not thrilled with my fall wardrobe and J.Crew Factory had just cute everything at 50% off. But I feel like today is the day to really start going after my goals and so I’m really doing this thing!
And … after thinking for months on end of starting this website, I am finally hitting publish! I don’t have a perfect plan about what I am going to write about, but it’s ok because I’m starting and I’ll figure it out 😉